I wish you knew

I know I'm not pretty
So what 
I've a beautiful heart
I know I'm hefty
So what 
I've an even broader mind
I know I don't have sparkling eyes
So what
I've a glittery life
I know I am not perfect
So what
I've a smile that isn't fake
I know you don't care
So what
I've people who do
I know you don't know anything at all
I wish you knew... you knew...

-Devi

Love, hope and more

Those shiny, lil blisters on her cheeks that he adored...
Those baby lil fat on her tummy that he loved...
Those curls that fall on her face that he would die for...
Never did he know that nothin's permanent
and change is so inevitable

Her face now is as clean as a newly painted wall
And it didnt have a blister for him to adore
Her tummy is now as flat as a pancake
And he had no chance to love i

t again
Her hair is now as straight as a horse's tail
And it never fell on her face anymore

Everything has worn out
With age, time and experience
She has changed in and out
Her mind, perspective and love for him
But just one thing remaining the same
Those memories, his hope and love!!

That dream I had, the best of all !!

I had a dream,

The best of all

The two of us together

On a freezing cold island

The velvet sky

and the lovely beach

Complemented each other

Like we both did

He suddenly knelt on his knees

And asked for my hand

The surprised me

had no clue what was next

"You are that bitch

Who had made me cry

Who makes me curse

For all the stupid things that you do

But deep inside I know

You are the one for me

Noone else in the world

Would love me as  much as you do

We'll still have tough times together

We'd fight for nothing

And say goodbye for everything

But at the end of the day

That hug heals all the pain

And somewhere,somehow

I love the pain that you give me

This, I know Is what you've been waiting for

For the past so many years

Everyday,everynight

I need you my girl

For the rest of my life

Will you marry me

And make my days bright?"

And i woke up 

To reality

Where I was all alone

In an empty desert

There was no one to hold my hand

Nor to sprinkle a smile on my face

I frowned like always

Which had beeen my default expression

There's no "he"

"He" is a myth

And a myth as we all know

Is hardly any reality !!

- Devi.

Helpless !

She's standing there helpless
Holding the tickets 
Watching the train leave the station
It would have taken her
To her destination
The land of hope
Moulded with eternal peace

Has she ever known
This was her destiny
To be lost in that ground
Where she never belonged
And the serenity
she was seeking for
Will never be hers

Her prayers were unheard
Who did she pray to?
That unknown power
Up in the sky
Who never listened to her voice
But still she did
With all the hope that someday
It would be heard and answered

Now this wasn't what she deserve
But she couldnt blame anyone
Other than her fate
That fate which gave her
The chance to reach the stars
But never let her touch them

What made her wussy
What made her cripple
She couldnt figure out
But all that she knew
Was that her life never had
A reason to live
And she was destined to be
Cramping for the rest of her life !!

Lifeless, Yet alive..!

Dont remember when I wrote this.. But as i went through it, thought its good.. :D So adding it here ;) Hope you guys would like it too :)

I miss that voice 
which i never knew I'd miss
I miss dat talk 
which kept me move on


And now that am all alone
With nothing to hold on
All that left is a bit of life
Which u didnt want me to loose


I cant move, i've nowhere to go
I cant talk, I've no one to talk with
There was one who always listened
But now that u've gone, I lost that too...


I wish u dont see me
Coz the way I live
Is as pathetic 
As it can be....
 I lost it, I lost it forever
and still I'm alive, only coz u want me to....


Am alive, am still alive...
But i need a knock 
From somewhere
To let me know
That I still breathe....


I feel like my heartbeats are ignored
They are striking so bad at me
 Dreadful dreams kill my sleep too
Never knew that life 
is dreadful than death....!!


And am here, with no life
But yet a fraction of it
That u left in me....!!

And that was when i knew.... I was in love, with you....

You pulled me back 
When i kept you aside

And that was when i knew

I was in love, with you....

You held my hands

And touched my soul

And that was when i knew

I was in love, with you....

The silence between us

Said a thousand words

And that was when i knew

I was in love, with you....

The songs i listened to

Always reminded me of you

And that was when i knew

I was in love, with you....

The world seemed to be 

A beautiful place

And that was when i knew

I was in love, with you....

The smile on your face

was all that  i wished for

And that was when i knew

I was in love, with you....

Your dreams were mine

And my life, all yours...

And that was when i knew

I was in love, with you....

Love wrecked yet
To you I owe
My life, soul and breath
And that was when I knew
I was in love with YOU !

Tranquility Of the Distressed Mind.!

Years passed by,
And all  her dreams,
Have lost their colors
The rainbow vanished
Amidst the darkness
There's nothing left
To cheer about
But a desperate life
And the shadow of dreams
Which keeps her move on..


New hope, new dreams
New fantasies and new ecstasies
Fill in the solitude
The vibes she get
Makes her smile
She has found her way
To make her life
Worth while
She lives it
The way it has to be
And she calls it
The tranquility 
Of the Distressed mind ;)